Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I Could Really Use a Wish Right Now

This song came on the radio last night, and it really hit me... hard. Honestly, anything with the mention of stars hits me because of my Grandma that passed away last December. Grandma Barbara was always there for me, and lately I've really been missing her. I have a few wishes about her and my kids this week, so we're linking up with Anne at Love the Here and Now for Wednesday Wishes

For starters I wish everyone kept the imagination and innocence that children have. When Grandma passed away, Zander was almost 4. He has an amazing memory, better than a lot of kids his age, and because I was very close with Grandma he got to be very close with her as well. He called (calls) her G.G. (because she was "too young to be a great grandma" so she didn't want to be called Great Grandma). He didn't quite understand her passing as that was the first person who was extremely close to him that he'd lost. We explained that G.G. was very sick, and God needed her as an Angel. With that he took "G.G. lives in the stars." Every time there's a clear night and we can see the stars Zander says, "look Mommy! G.G. is smiling at us!" Yeah, tear jerk-er! He constantly talks about G.G. this way. Talking about how happy she is in heaven and how he's glad she's not sick anymore. I swear he's smart beyond his years.
Grandma at Zander's first birthday
I wish cancer didn't exist. Plain and simple.

I wish Ainsley was able to get to know Grandma the way Zander did. It makes me sad that she was almost one when Grandma passed. However, I am happy that Zander, Josh, and I have so many wonderful pictures and memories to share with Ainsley as she gets older. For that we are blessed.
I'm blessed to have had such an amazing, beautiful, Christian-like woman in my life. She taught me so much, and I'm so glad I was so close with her.

What are you wishing for today?
Love the Here and Now


  1. Stop it! This made me cry! My grandma will be gone 2 years in November and still sometimes it's like it happened just yesterday.
    Huge hug!

  2. Ohhhhhh.....speechless. My aunt lost her battle with cancer yesterday. I know exactly what you mean and how you re feeling. Keep them close in our hearts. Share memories often and never forget!

  3. I wish cancer didn't exist too. Someday hopefully it won't. How sweet of Zander to remember her and think of her when he sees stars! Children often say it like it is (sometimes not a good thing!) but I think you should take great comfort in the fact that he knows she is in heaven and not in pain. So sweet!

  4. Awww, I'm really sorry.

    I was watching Coal Miner's Daughter last night. My grandparents are from Arkansas and West Virginia and hearing that Kentucky twang that's extremely similar to me as a Baltimoron/Annapolitan Marylander -- it tore me apart. I can't believe I'll never see them again on Earth. It's unfair that we get so attached and snuggly with our grandmas and grandpas and then we have to say goodbye.

  5. This made me think of my granddaddy. He passed away when I was about 11 i think. It hurts my heart to know my kids & my husband will never get to know what an amazing man he was. & that he did not get to meet them either. But I know he is in heaven (with my two angel babies) watching us all grow. <3

  6. What a beautiful post for wishes. I'm sure Zander will carry these memories with him forever.

  7. Oh my gosh, that is so sweet - GG lives in the stars. And you know what? She will continue to live on for him (and for you) in the stars, and in your heart- in the memories you continue to share, the stories you tell. And you especially will be reminded of her in random things and times. I always think of my Grandpa when I eat spicy chili or drink bloody marys :) And sometimes I'll just look up and say, "Miss you every day" and I know he hears me. XO. Sending you love, Melissa.